Little things that make me smile:)

I was just pondering on what brings a smile on my face, apart from the usual joking around with friends, teasing, poking fun, material pleasures the following are some of the things which lit my face up :

A baby elephant nuzzling against its mother.

The sight of my dog running towards me , wagging her scruffy tail everytime she sees me.

Walking in a garden ,smelling the mud after the first showers of rain.

Watching the rain lashing against the car window while going on a long drive.

Looking at drops of morning dew on a green-leaf of a flowering plant.

A small but memorable gift from a loved one.

Coming home after a long vacation

Conversing with my 7 year old cousin.

Smell of home-cooked food after a long time.

My baby nephew clutching my finger tightly when I carry him around.

Meeting an old friend after a long gap.

Chatting about childhood memories.

The sunrise on a beach.

Staring at the ocean come alive at night.

Watching the reflection of moonlight in a waterbody.

A surprise visit by a loved one.

The sight of a rainbow on a field

A farmer drenched in sweat eating his hard-earned meal.

Children running out from school as the final bell rings.

Ticking off any item from my list of 'things to do before i die'

Are we alone?

Just finished watching 'Independence Day' for the zillionth time, one of my favourites, a movie on alien invasion.As a twelve- year old, like many others when someone pulled my then very-chubby cheeks & asked me with amusement & curiosity the common ‘What do you wan’t to become when you grow big, kiddo?’ I with my deep-brown eyes gazing at the sky replied an Astronaut instantly.

Looking at the night sky one question pops up in an inquisitive head? Is there someone lurking somewhere faraway on one of those bright stars? Something which moves, which has life, made up of matter?

It would be foolish to assume there is nothing out there admist that what seems like nothingness to our naked eye. As I observe & try to imagine the universe, zooming out from where I stand, to - as broader scale as my imagination can stretch to I feel as tiny as ‘a littlest baby flea on a tiny blade of grass in the forests of Amazon’ would feel. Our whole planet itself if seen from somewhere above would seem that tiny. So what are the chances that the humankind with our collective ignorance are the only ones in the entire universe?? Do the math & you will find the probablity very negligible, zilch because of the vastness of the universe..

Visulising an alien – my brain is filled with images, movies have fed us with. First thing that comes to mind is a green/red ugly looking mass with big eyes, octopus-ish limbs, covered with some dripping poisonous substance. I am certain if there exists an alien, it would be something beyond our imagination, it would be creature-X.

It might be of some complex twisted shape, square or just a blob.

It might communicate in high range frequencies which we couldn’t even pick up.

It might move/roll around like a road-roller, glide, fly

It might be much smarter, stronger, bigger, than us.

It might have skin made of gold/ some glittering substance.

It might be something beautiful, colourful.

We are taught to be scared of these things, what if they are nice god-like creatures.

So many possibilities….the brain goes beserk...

SO what do you’ll think? How do they look in your heads?

Post your comments.

Whims & wonderings

“The girl with fair glistening skin almost as though made of marble, deep-sparkling brown eyes, contrasting her white robes danced on the white sands under the moonlight, as the moon kissed the ocean surface leaving behind a shaky reflection on the dark waters leading to where her feet moved, almost like a path to heaven. Her expression was that of peaceful submission, which screamed that hers was a

Restless mumblings

Today everything has been a bit hazy, everything around me is kind of snail-paced & things are not going as planned. My mind is all over the place, brimming with undecipherable thoughts & since there is a lots of unfinished business my mind is restless. I feel as though I am floating mid-ocean without my oars, although I have my compass & my direction is clear , the oars(means) are missing….when will I reach the shores? The past few months have been a roller-coater ride in many aspects, there were times when I was riding on a high & then some moments when I was in the deepest trench of the world, everything appears to be heading in the right direction when suddenly at the last moment, there is a twist & everything halts or there is a change in course. I know I am being a vague here, but this is how much I can put in words. Brooding is not for me, but when things keep pulling you down, its difficult to keep standing upright again & again. To an onlooker my world looks nice & hunky-dory but when put under the microscope the fault-lines will start showing. Now looking obectively things are not as bad, in fact they seem kind of pale in comparison to many, but it was something I had to jot down ,to get it out of my system & to keep me from getting bitter……already feeling better!

Chocolate, Cheese & Fantasies

Today I have been a dreamy mood. As I dusted my bookshelf, a book I loved as a kid ‘The Faraway Tree Tales’ bought back some memories in which there was a land where everything was made of chocolates.Was just wondering how it would be living in a house made of dark chocolate (No I am not crazy, just a wishful fantasy!). Yesterdays visit to a local coffee shop, chatting with a buddy sipping over a mug of hot dark chocolate, oozing upto the brim of the mug , with a neat abstract design on the surface,

Souls, mysticism & more

Lately I have discovered this mystic side of me which is curious about the inexact ‘sciences’ like astrology, numerology etc. Not that I rely on it ,or read & believe in those daily horoscopes. But I sort of have a feeling there is something in it & not totally gibberish.

I just read my Past life analysis , as re-birth is one of the concepts of Hinduism . It says Our soul remains the same but we obtain different life forms. Some questions which immediately crop up my mind are : What is intriguing is that since the population keeps increasing, & every being has a soul, so does that mean, the soul splits or new ones are generated. Splitting of souls sounds scary (even every Harry Potter fan will associate it with something heinous ) & if new souls are being generated then what is the source? Is there even a thing such a soul or is it only a creation of religious myth? Where does the soul of a living thing go after its physical form perishes? Does it go up flying somewhere in space as most of us picture in our heads? Then through some complicated process are we assigned new physical forms? What is the correlation between a soul & morality- does an immoral act diminish/corrupt the soul?hmmm.....

So anyway my past life analysis reads like this “You were probably born as a human who was a great teacher. You could well have been the person who imparted essential knowledge & wisdom to some of the most famous & legendary names we know today. Even today you are one of those persons who are intellectually superior to others. You are very interested in knowing & exploring new facts & In improving your overall knowledge”.

I can relate to the above analysis. It feels nice to even think of a possibility of having had such an interesting past life. Hope I can go one step higher in this life.

As per numerology my Birth Number is ‘1’ – The Innovator.

“It is associated with new beginnings. You are an original person. You constantly get ideas about doing something new. You are full of positive energy & very ambitious in life. You love to take initiatives & are most likely to assume leadership position. You prefer to be self-reliant & don’t take help of others.”

Again I can associate many of these things with how I go about my life.

But since we are all rational beings & who are thought at every stage of life to see things as black or white, we sometimes miss out on the grays & lighter shades of black. Also since these cannot be proved with evidences, so there will always be this undertone of suspicion.

Taking time-off!

Its been almost 4 months of me being out of the rat-race which is the fuel of our modern-days life. I must say its been one of the most rejuvenating experiences. My always otherwise restless-mind , always pining for something-else & expression which reads ‘I’d much rather be somewhere-else’ has been wiped out.

Everyday brings in new plans , an optimism, a hope , a new thing to learn…which would have been impossible if I had been caged to a cubbie. I am so loving the pleasant expectations a new day brings in…

I don’t have to be alert always ( which frankly puts a strain on all our senses, not desirable physically in the long-run),

I don’t have to be social ( cheerfull, ready to make small-talk) always I can be my quiet, solemn & thoughtfull as and when I please,

I don’t need to work on computerized application & work on things so far & remote from my daily life , that I can’t relate to.

I get to constantly do something new, different which keeps me pepped up…

Its this rat-race which sucks out the life in you & I don’t blame or look-down on those who put in their lives in pursuit for something as petty & common as money, which is the driver of the whole rat-race mechanism ….

Not that I don’t have lapses when I see my peers busy making themselves ‘usefull’ & in the process enjoying a healthy bank balance……….the lure of money surely is an attraction for the lesser-wise mortals.

But I have also come to the conclusion that we cannot live in our own happy bubble doing ‘nothing productive’ in society’s terms.(productive=anything which raises the GDP=destroy’s the environmental balance(source an article I read)) because however idealist one tries to be while living their life there is the constant-pull & influences of the environment we live in constantly hitting-us from all directions which even if give up all the luxuries as a suffix to our shunning the pursuit of money…one cannot deny that emergencies( modern-day diseases, unforeseen events) exist & money is the means for the solution.

Inspite of my strong views & hatred I confess to being a hypocrite …(for many reasons ….I cannot express in my writings., I am scared of being so frank even with myself ) I shall have to return to being a part of this rat-race so don’t judge me…….

Reminiscing

I was just remembering where I was last month during this time. I miss the freedom exploring the streets of the quiet coastal town of Candolim, with a bunch of friends, under the sweltering sun with my cotton-shorts, skirts & shirt. Here living in the city its difficult to dress down, even if the sun is burning your skin & you begin sweating profusely from every inch of your skin, so much so that your sweat-glands are over-worked. There is the risk of having people ogling at you or even some catcalls. It is almost another form of  the 'purdah system', why does such a small thing have to be such a big deal?

new day

Today had this longing feeling to be somewhere on some beach...laying on my back , watching a bird soar in the sky ,with white cotton-like clouds in the background. It just gives me this pleasant feel ......Cant wait to begin with my travelling plans, more on that later.

Living in a city just makes you so disconnected with everything, the earth(soil) , the trees ..so when we take a vacation we go someplace which has all these elements..the best vacations are those not spent in a luxurious resort but those where you just spend time to reconnect with your roots.

My upcoming beach vacation has put me on a perpetual high, its just something I have been wanting to do for a long while but have not been able to ...
Academics has always been a priotrity but i feel it is high time I put myself on the frontseat, & do what makes me truely happy.

the hunt for a perfect job..

Suddenly filled with this urge to share my thoughts & experiences...
So got down to writing this post.
Lately i have been filled with this almost overpowering sense of restlestness whether what i am doing is what i would like to be doing & this is the way i would like to spend the rest of my life??

Doing mundane things like washing my own vessels, cleaning random stuff, planting a new sapling in my not-so huge balcony garden..etc have become a part of my daily routine and gives me this sense of satisfaction which no job involving sitting in the shadow of a LED- screen punching in numbers can give me...

so i begin to wonder are we humans designed to spend 8 hrs at a desk/cabin doing things which are so distant & we cannot relate to...can this make anyone truely happy?

I have become this confused soul constantly questioning this whole idea of a 'Job' which our life revolves around-
We go to school earn our respectable degrees, attach fancy designations to our names,
all for what?? to get the perfect job .....which we think will lead us to satisfy our higher level needs of social recognition, money. But does it really keep us happy?

So have you pondered about it?

And...what is the conclusion?

The immediate question that comes to your mind is so what would i do if i didn't have a job
1.travel like a hippie...naah
2.survive on others hard-earned money....dont think so..too much of self-respect to do that.

the other alternative would be to find out your real talent something you really excel at and make a job out of it..but what about the ever-searching souls who haven't discovered their special thing as yet..?

have to get back to some unfinished business but will continue to keep you posted on this topic.